on work and challenges

My first job out of college was a desk job at a small awesome company, who is doing extremely well because they have the best customer service ever.  This job was a really great first job (and I appreciate/miss my fair and awesome manager and co-workers a lot), but it was a shock for me to sit at a desk all day. 

During that time, I was really lost.  I had no idea what I wanted to do or what the first step to getting there would even be.

Everyday after work, I would head to the gym to take Body Step or Body Combat or Body Pump classes; they made me feel alive after work.

Looking back, I am so thankful for my first job; I was respected and treated well, it just wasn't in the right industry for me. 

Currently, I am facing different challenges.  I am out and about, which I am so thankful for, but I struggle on a daily basis to find my voice.  Lately, I have been feeling like I run around in circles.  I am cooking and working out and decorating and studying.  But, I don't feel as confident because I am trying things that are completely uncomfortable; I am putting myslef out there.  I always thought finding the path was the hard part.

I really just had to get that out.  I enjoy a challenge, but when everything is hard all at once, it kind of knocks the wind out of you.

I want to help.

lets exercise and eat better.  when I see things like this, I am reminded that real changes need to be made in our culture to combat this epidemic.  but its not that easy. at all.  I don't know what the answer is, (yet).  and it will never be straightforward. but, I know I want to help.

on a happier note, I just completed the hardest chem lab I have ever had.  but, it was the type of hard that completely absorbed my conscience for an hour and a half, and I feel proud and invigorated.  yes working hard and stretching to new limits is never easy or comfortable.  it is very very uncomfortable.  but it feels good after.  maybe not even at first.  I highly recommend getting into the work and out of the comfort.